The Secret to Contentment <3

Hey masterpieces!

Yes you, i hope you know how awesome you are and please don't wait for someone else to tell you that, remind yourself everyday.!!! :-)

It took a long time for me to get back to writing and vlogging but I felt that I needed to do this for myself. I want to get better at finishing what I start.

So this year...2018 has been a very interesting one...lol that is the best way I can explain it. I prayed for growth in January and boy oh boy did God come through with the growth and all the pain involved in being whole. I was broken for a long time but didn't know how to get passed it, I didn't know the purpose of my pain but for some reason God had me working on gratitude these past 2 years.

Every morning since 2016 I felt like I was going through a routine of the same ol same ol....going through the motions. I felt stuck one day and didn't do anything(STAGNANT). You know the worse thing in life is to find yourself in a place that you thought you had passed or broken from (RELAPSE). Have you ever had a situation or problem, illness, bad situation that you had overcome and was really, really so proud of yourself? You also gained major insight, confidence after that trial and found the purpose of your existence. Then all of a sudden the tables turn and your back where you once were....

That was me for the past 2 years. I didnt look like it but I had lost my joy, purpose, confidence and I felt so much shame. I don't know why I felt shame I guess I felt I had failed in life. The story can be really long but here's the funny part (not really funny) during this time God led me to study and listen about gratitude, thankfulness, worship etc.. he wanted me to take the attention off of myself and on him..

Run your own race love, there is a beautiful ending....